Archive for March, 2010

After spending the summer trying to secure financial aid and find out a way to make up my grades, I was defeated. There was nothing I could do. I was forced to move back home with my parents and get a part-time job in retail, which I HATED. But I had no other immediate alternatives. Obviously at this point I was hating my life. My parents were okay to live with, but my job was pretty grueling and mind-numbing, with lots of on-call shifts I never knew if I would be working, and pay way too crappy to consider moving out. I had some old friends still living around there, and I hung out with them once in awhile, but it was hard with my weird work schedule. You guessed it, I started smoking more than ever. Sometimes I would smoke at work, but usually it just made me hate being there even more, so I would stay sober. But I made up for it as soon as I got off. In the parking lot I would fire up my first bowl, get home, take a magical shower while I smoked, and then probably have another bowl closer to bedtime. I was back in full-swing.

This time though, smoking was only making me more depressed. It put me in my own head, and isolated me from my parents. I didn’t want to be around them when I was stoned, so I mostly stayed in my room watching TV, surfing the internet, and playing video games. Sometimes¬† I would hang out with friends, but not often. I slowly grew more depressed was I was faced to confront the reality of my life. I had a good opportunity in going to college, but I literally let it go up in smoke. I had let smoking weed become a priority over BUILDING A FUTURE for myself. I want to say I couldn’t believe it, but really, it wasn’t hard to believe. It was then that I realized I really had a problem with weed.

I tried quitting a few times over the course of a month but it was the same story as always. I would resolve with all of my being, then be smoking again within the week, and soon after buying a refill of my supply and guaranteeing I wouldn’t be quitting at least until that was gone. Now I realized how big my problem really was. I knew weed wasn’t like crack or something, but I just could not seem to quit.

So, I finally decided to look outside myself for help. That’s when I found Seb Grant’s book: Quit Marijuana- The Complete Guide. I wasn’t too hot about paying for the help, but I figured it costs less than an eighth, so why not spend some money on QUITTING what I’m blowing so much money on.

I started reading Quit Marijuana – The Complete Guide and it really resonated with me. Seb Grant definitely knows what he is talking about. He helped me pinpoint the reasons in my life that made me keep smoking and prevented me from breaking my cycle of addiction. The exercises in the book really helped me think about what I needed to do to quit, and then put that into action. His free detox guide that was also included was a nice addition, and I figured I might as well go all out and start following that as well.

Within a week, I was feeling much better. I was no longer feeling irritable all the time like I used to when I would try to quit, and that sleepy weed hangover feeling that had been building up in my body was finally starting to go away. I knew I was on to something. When I reached the 10 day mark I was pretty proud of myself, I couldn’t remember the last time I had gone more than a week without smoking. With my “success streak” of 10 days going, I was feeling pretty proud of my resolve.

And now it’s 4 years later, and I’ve kept that resolve. After the first 3 months it was incredibly easy and I was feeling normal again without having to smoke.

I made up some classes at community college and returned to the college I had been basically kicked out of, and got my degree. This time going back, my focus was on SCHOOL instead of smoking. But since I wasn’t high and/or tired all the time, I actually had an improved social life. I still partied on the weekends, but just having some drinks with friends. It was a much more satisfying experience, and what I had always thought my college experience should be. That’s when I knew I had made the right choice when I quit weed. That alone made me so happy that I had bought the Quit Marijuana Book.

I graduated now, and I work a job I like allright. It’s hard work, but it’s satisfying and FAR better than whatever shit job I am sure I would be doing if instead of buying Quit Marijuana – The Complete Guide ,¬† I had just put that money towards my next resupply.

And this story is getting way longer than I planned… So I’ll just spout off some other things I have noticed have improved since I quit weed. My relationship with my family has improved since I don’t have to sneak around getting high, I am happier with my friends since I never put getting high above hanging out, I can now feel rested on 7 or 8 hours of sleep instead of NEVER feeling rested, I can fall asleep easily without needing to burn first, and overall I just have a feeling of CONTROL in my life again that is based on my inner-desires and not around my smoking schedule. And oh yeah, saving $150 or more a month for things that will not just be smoked away is also pretty nice.

So please, take it from me… If you’ve been trying to quit weed on your own for awhile now and it never seems to stick, just get Quit Marijuana – The Complete Guide. But ONLY if you think you have what it takes to FINISH the book and do what Seb Grant says. He won’t have you doing anything crazy, but I know it can be scary to make a life-changing decision. I was scared when I did. But I will never regret it. And I believe you can also quit weed if you can’t seem to stop from past experience. If I can do it, so can you.

Even if you have been smoking three times as much weed for three times as long as me, if you WANT to quit, and you have the right help, you can DO IT and make a lasting change in your life that you will be able to look back on and never have ANY regrets about it.

If you’re on the fence, I encourage you to bookmark my site, and come back in a week and read it again. Think about what you did for the last week. Do you feel the same or worse about smoking as you did last week? Are you really happy with your life? Only you can answer this question, and I really hope you are being honest with yourself.

If you decide that you are ready to quit weed forever, and you are ready to get some help, in my opinion there is no better resource than Seb Grant’s book QUIT MARIJUANA – THE COMPLETE GUIDE.

I hope that whether you buy Seb Grant’s book or not, I have helped you think about what you want in life, and maybe inspired a change for the better.

Thanks for reading my story, and remember:

If I can do it, anyone can.

Brent Murdoch

My everyday smoking behavior continued for another two years of college. As my tolerance grew, I gradually smoked more and more to try to get the high that I remembered was so fun when I started in high school. I still enjoyed smoking, but I could never seem to capture that lucid high where I got totally caught up in the moment. Instead I was in more of a relaxed, lethargic high, and very much in my own head. This was the first time I really thought that trying to quit weed would be a good idea. Besides not feeling as good when I was high anymore, I was also feeling tired all the time. No amount of sleep seemed to really recharge me the way I thought it should, and I could usually cough up a good amount of phlegm. Even if I tried and went a couple of days without smoking, I didn’t feel much better. After that I would resume smoking for one reason or another.

I can’t count the number of times I resolved to quit smoking. I would write it down. I would promise myself that I was smoking my last sack for at least a month. I would say it out loud to myself. I would put my pieces and weed away in a box that was a pain to get back out. But every time, I’d end up bored and think, “why not just smoke a bowl? I’ll be doing the same things anyways, I might as well enjoy it a little more by being high.” And then I’d do it. Every time. I would be disappointed with myself, but not for long. It’s not like I invested that much effort in my attempt to quit, not enough to be really disappointed.

The end of my third year of college was where it all caught up to me: I was failing half of my classes. I was getting a B and an A in the classes I enjoyed, but I felt I couldn’t be bothered to show up to the other two classes I was in. They were too early in the morning and I never felt I was learning anything in them. Of course, I was up until midnight or 1am the night before those classes every week smoking and then sleeping in. I was put on academic probation and started having trouble with financial aid.

This was really the beginning of my journey to hitting what I consider my own “rock-bottom” that forced me to change my ways and really buckle down and seek help for my addiction.

At this point I was still convinced that weed should be easy to quit because it was just a psychological addiction, but of course, any attempts to quit lasted only a few days until I got bored or a friend wanted to hang out and smoke with me. I thought I was in control, but really, getting high was becoming the number one priority in my life and I thought that was allright and I could keep everything else in check.

Soon I would find out how wrong I was.